Scared of Lonely

i wonder if people still read this?? lol.
if so, you should comment on this!!
i kno we dont write on this thing anymore, atleast i dont..but thats only because finals are coming up and all these tests..yada yada.
update: this semester is almost over. thank GAWD. it cant end soon enough.
im really feeling this beyonce CD right now. alot of people say she didn't go hard enough, but i feel that her songs came from the heart this album. sure, its not as good as B'day but its not had.
its a few songs on there that im relating too..like this one.
Scared of Lonely.
the lyrics really hit hard.
" im in this fight, and im swingin. and my arms are getting tired. i'm tryin to beat this emptiness but im running out of time. im sinkin in the sand and i can barely stand. im lost in the stream, i need you to hold me. im scared of lonely."
i feel that im searching for something and i dont know what exactly that is yet.
it's like im missing a little part of me that im longing and waiting for...hmm.
idk. maybe i'll find out what that is soon.


in other notes.
its getting cold outside.
that means boo cake time lol.
that means i need to get back on my pimpin game..i have surely been slipping lately!
i dont think being in a relationship is for me right now..even tho i want one BAD. its been a min.
but no? ehh..


comment this tho!

And when it is all said and done..

i was having a conversation with my long time friend about relationships and sex. He was telling me that he wasnt ready for a relationship, and makes sure to tells his cut buddies that from the get-go without leading them on. I told him that i really think i am ready to take on a relationship.
He said anyone could be ready to take on a relationship, but its the maintaining part thats hard. the grass is always greener on the other side. This got me to thinking maybe he's right. i think my problem is that i would rather plan out my tomorrow instead of letting it come to me ( this comes with the territory of being a taurus). I think i just need to chill, enjoy life and focus on important things for right now. My friend told me that sometimes the person who could be ur soulmate probably is right under you the whole time. i guess we'll see what life makes of this. im ready to take it on. ther. there's nothing wrong with talking to people, but i'm not looking to start anything with anyone for a while. sooo there's my spiel for the day.
with love,
nae.

Look What The Wind Blew In.

Sooo I know I haven't wrote on here in a min but alot has been going on.

1. We have officially taken everyone off the roster and no recruitment will be going on anytime soon.
2. Im focusing all my attention on school and getting back on the right track.
3. Girls should know that there are good guys out there they just aren't necessarily the "ballers" in the club, or the first guy you are attracted to.
4. When and I do say when I finally feel like talking to someone I'm only looking for quality no more quantity taking it one guy at a time because I'm too grown for this.

damnn sonn.

its been a min., huh?
well some CRAZY SHIT has been going on in life. so let me let you guys in on it.
but FIRST.
a week till voting. yall ready? good.
anyway..
lets talk about REALNESS.
please do not claim that you have this if you really dont. you put other people's feelings into jeapordy when they find out that the shit you preach aint true. i have always been the one to try and defend men when females try to bash them with that, NIGGAS AINT SHIT, shit. welllll......*shrugs*. something must be in the damn water this year. as a young woman, i try to be compelling and sincere when it comes to the opposite sex, and whenever i start something new with someone they get nothing but the honest truth. but yall mothafuckas have taken me for granted! most of you out here claiming you looking for something but stfu..your not looking for shit..quit lying to yourself.
this is why women resort to batteried occupied objects, ok?.
fuck giving my all of i dont get that shit reciprocated back to me. if you CLAIM you like someone like you really do..then work that shit out!! damn. stop being a woosy and try COMMUNICATING. thats the problem with people today because nobody talks to each other about what is wrong with them.
and can somebody answer me this? is there a such thing as being TOO EMOTIONAL? i been tryin to analyze this shit in my head for a few days now..but i havent came to no conclusions. i try to think like aristotle or plato when it comes to confusing shit like this. so let me try and give it a go.emotions are not rational. you cannot help that shit. PEOPLE have emotions. we are not robots. we cry.we laugh.we get mad. and when we drunk that shit comes out more! so to sit here and say that i have too much of that shit is a understatement. because i care, i'm not good enough? pshh. you can take that and shove it up ur ass. ladies. do not change for NO ONE but YOU or GOD. got it? the world is a dangerous place, but a big and beautiful one. if its someone out there that HATE what you do, what you stand for, how you live your life..embrace it. because you will always have a hater till the day you die. smile at them. shake your head in pity. and move on.because there is always someone that will come by and will look at you and say, " girl..your beautiful. you have emotions and i will take them and love them like they are my own."
aint that the kinda man we ALL want?? haha.
and who knows..that person might be the one whose opinion matters the most.
ya figgadealz me?
so if your talking to someone, or its someone who u like or w.ever the case..and they say your " too emotional" give them the booboo face and keep it movin. cuz you will find nothing but mayhem and dismay in that loser.
get it? greaaaat.
am i done ranting and raving? idkk.


oh yeah i really wanna go see saw V. THIS weekend wen i come home.
and shouts to netta whose getting married on saturdayy!! i wish nothing but the best for you and hubby girll. love ya.
i wrote enough for now.
so this is me saying peaceee :)
with love, nae.

when i see jesus.

part of this gospel song is really how im looking at life right now.
had to post it.



for when i see jesus amen
when i see jesus amenn
all of my trials, my tribulations, my heartaches
they will be over
for when i see jesus. it'll be amenn
when i see jesus amenn
when i see jesus
all of my trials, my tribulations, my heartaches, my misunderstandings, my dissapointments, my confusion
they will be over
cuz when i see jesus
it'll be amenn.

Resentment. my fav. song right now!

I wish I could believe you then I’ll be alright
But now everything you told me really don’t apply
To the way I feel inside
Loving you was easy once upon a time
But now my suspicions of you have multiplyed
And it's all because you lied

Chorus:
I only give you a hard time
Cause I cant go on and pretend like
I haven’t tried to forget this
But I'm much too full of resentment

Just can’t seem to get over the way you hurt me
Don’t know how you gave another who didn’t mean a thing,the very thing you gave to me I thought I could forgive you and I know you've changed
As much as I wanna trust you I know it ain’t the same
And it's all because you lied

Chorus:
I only give you a hard time
Cause I cant go on and pretend like
I haven’t tried to forget this
But I'm much too full of resentment!!

I may never understand why
I’m doing the best that I can and I
I tried and I tried to forget this but
I’m much too full of resentment

I'll always remember feeling like I was no good
Like I couldn’t do it for you like your mistress could
And it's all because you lied

Bridge:
Loved you more than ever
More than my own life
The best part of me I gave you
I made a sacrifice
And it's all because you lied

Chorus:
I only give you a hard time
Cause I cant go on and pretend like
I tried and I tried to forget this but
But I'm too damn full of resentment

I know she was attractive but I was here first
Been ridin’ with you for six years why did I deserve
To be treated this way by you, you
I know your probably thinking what’s up with Bee
I been crying for too long what did you do to me
I used to be so strong but now you took my soul
I'm crying cant stop crying cant stop crying
You could of told me that you wasn’t happy
I know you didn’t wanna hurt me
But look what you done did to me now
I gotta look at her in her eyes and see she's had half of me
How could you lie

yesss.

she cook, she clean, neva smell like onion rings

lmao.
me and kalena was tlkin about that independent songg by webbie. i say neyo copied him by miss independent lol. but that song is still hot!!.
in updated news.
i had a love/hate weekend.
i ended up getting sick, and studied the whole weekend
but i saw someone who i really wanted to see. =]

butcheaaaa.

question to the public?
what does " gf funds" have to do with being in a relationship?
i do not need your money. a relationship does not consist of that.
its just a sorry excuse to not date thatperson!
questions? comments?



post.

UPDATE!!

Sooo I haven't posted in a minute and felt the need to update on my life....

OMG I WAS PROPOSED TO...........but I'm way tooooo young......

Some things I have noticed:

1. Good guys exist.

2. Good guys either: aren't attractive, don't have it all together, or already got a girl.

3. The ones you don't want are always the ones that want you.

I hate the new Beyonce Video.....stole the idea from Ciara and I honestly can't see myself singing to this in the car.....nice try B

O yea I met another guy but the situation is slightly ruff sooo updates on him soon.....

Also check out my other blog http://thedirtygurls.blogspot.com only for the grown and sexy

And Yay I think I may have found a Sweetie for Sweetest Day lets keep are fingers crossed.

AND  Last but not least R.I.P. Lamont "Hopz" Calhoun Jr. He will truly be missed. Everyone should really learn from this to cherish every person in your life and live your life to the fullest.

Alright I'm out for now.

Soul Mate

Adam

Molded from onyx clay

I was meant to stay with you forever

Though I took your rib, I will never leave you empty

Reach for me and I will always be there

It is with me that you can bare your vulnerabilities

Call on me and I will listen to your deepest fears

In the dark I will dry your tears with my love

Sent from above I am your divine gift

Here to uplift you when you fall,

and when you are standing tall, I will be at your side

Down to ride it is together that we belong

Even though I am soft to your touch,

I will be the backbone that keeps you strong and secure

Pure

I am of your essence

A reflection of the character you display

When you sway I will lean in your direction

Your protection and your shield

I feel you and I will never leave

I am your sacred garment for life

Your spirit

Your wife

I am Eve

In a relationship with Myself.

So I've basicially come to the conclusion that I'm going to be single. I know they say don't rush things blah blah blah but every guy is the same story.......either the first 2 wks are greatt then he turns into someone new or they just want to see how im going to be in bed and honestly I don't have time for that nor will I make time. So I'm off the market. I belong to myself and that's it. Focusing on me...... Alright I feel slightly better.

BUT I AM STILL TAKING APPS FOR SWEETEST'S DAY LOL

fuck YOU, and YOU and especially YOU

so basically.

i want to drop out of school right now.

i fucking hate math and chemistry

anddd...i especially hate all of u.

if u really want to get cussed out then step to me wrong today and see what happens because chanae is not in the best of moods

woosah? go fuck yourself.

with hate,

nae.

I FUCKING LOVE NE-YO

Yes I got my own.....I just want to compliment you. Let's help each other grow. My man is to my right not in front or behind me. :)

Are you a Go Girl?

Ok soo I love Ciara for the most part......she is young. fresh. and hot. I don't know how I really feel about the whhole Robot look but the beginning is rather hot....I would def try out...Creep up on my man in his office ;) and lay it down GO GIRL!

My Life

Ok sooo how come right when life starts looking up things go wrong......The fairytale is sooon ending with the "good guy" after soome interesting information.....and my phone broke soooo no communication with the world......and that damn philosophy test is today (pray for me) lol but on a lighter noter.......Last night I went to Lola's with Dadria....I had had a great time and saw "the poet" as he will be referred to. He is a very interesting person.....perhaps thats why I want to know more.....*sidenote* I had been eyeing him for 3 years and just recently got the courage to say something. And it was like meeting your favorite star only to realize they are really down to earth........But more about him later.....

Confusion

Aghhhh.....

So much love to give yet only one can truly take. One must decide which is more important. One takes my thoughts to higher meanings and my body to new heights yet now that I think so does the other. I'm captivated by the stride of confidence and intelligence of a man. The way he makes me feel I have no choice but to learn more. On the other hand I'm already learning and from what I have been taught I enjoy, but is that truly enough can we graduate to new heights or is this it? Do I go on new paths or stay the steady course.......


So many thoughts.......

Usher, Usher, Usher

TraDiNg PlAcEs VidEo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3MosgE9y81Q

Hmmmm i love this song but Usher was doin a lil too much

where was ur wife when this video was being recorded???

hahahaha..... :-/

For My Love

So honestly I want to taste each and every part of him. He is tantalizing to the point I can't stop thinking about him. He makes my temperature rise to the point of combustion. I want to run like a waterfall on his love. Let him get comfortable in my cave and go deeper and deeper. I want to make every pain turn into ecstasy of love. I want to ride into the oceans of his love. Let me become so entranced by our lovemaking that nothing can break me from the rhythm of our bodies while intertwined .

Never used R.I.P so much

SoOo the title explains it all..I, along with many other people have lost many loved ones in the past few months. Ive lost 4 people in the last 3 weeks, a close friend, Uncle, Mickey and of course Lamont and i'm tired of saying R.I.P. Its getting crazy out here, we are losing too many people and its unnecessary...its simply to the point when I can't cry anymore because my heart is used to the pain. My mother was telling me its a shame how many people in our generation is going to be gone by the time we graduate from college and its really scary real talk..People are too quick to use guns to fix their problems. I dont kno how much more I can take..of course the tears will flow but it doesn't express all the pain. Life is stressful enough without losing people and death of loved ones makes it even harder...I hope one day people will wake up, or maybe its already to late..

-LeNa-

Kanye's Love Lockdown

Ok I lovee Kanye Like to Death buttttt this tribute to Coming to America is not working for me at alll.....Artistically we couuld have done a little bit better 'Ye get it together....notice Ellen simply saying I love that song at the end....lmao


O yea Shout Outs to Big Sean Getcha Some!!!

DERECA AKA DORITOS

DERECA MY LOVE!

its now 1:09 and she left us for the navy 9 mins ago. i know im acting like she died, but she might as well be its 4 years without really talking to her. she was one of my very good friends that i made my freshman year at Univ. of Toledo. I remember when we all got drunk and me and her went outside to smoke a mild and were making plans to jump off the building LOL. who else am i going to call when im on my drunken rampages!! i called u everyday to talk about my problems, and u were the only one who offered advice :(. who can i run too now?

i hope that you do very very well in the navy and u come back and make us all proud, with ABS enough for all of us to have some lol.

I LOVE U DORITOS!!

your charlie brown

Aghhh......I hate being indecisive

Sooo I know its only like 7am but usually I would actually be up earlier than this. Ok so today I quit my job. Now most people my age wouldn't care but I reallllllly like my job well maybe not the job but the people, the enviroment, and sometimes the work. Unfortunately it was just doing to much and after 50 billlion times going over it in my head I felt it best to quit as opposed to me going in with a negative attitude.........I'm just nervous to how my friend is going to react aghhhh I hate disappointing people. But as the quote goes "Only you can make you happy" and in order to do that you have to make tough decisions.

Now Moving On........

Watch the Debates Tonight......


Get the New T.I. and Ne-Yo Joints they are HAWT!!!!!

O YEA AND I THINK I FINALLY FOUND A GOOD GUY! YAY History lesson on AP I never find good guys they all end up having flaws that are undesirable or I'm simply unattracted which makes me not want to talk to them anymore. For instance, there was a guy couple weeks ago gave my number to 20 mins into our phone conversation he reveals 1. He has a child, which I guess wasn't that big of a deal. 2. He referred to his son as his "Lil'Nigga" now any man that is referring to their son as that is a HOT ASS MESS in my book so on that note he was done. But now I'm happy and this one makes me :) lets keep are fingers crossed.
One more thing I think its time for a new tat yes I have four pics soon...... But I think I want Carpe Diem on my middle finger similar to Rihanna's Love tat.....you know kinda like Fuck you seize the day sorta thing. maybe still thinking

Thats it for now......Stay Tuned

late night philosophy lesssons.

so i ran across one of my favorite quotes by one of my favorite philosophers:

People are like dirt. They can either nourish you and help you grow as a person or they can stunt your growth and make you wilt and die.

-Plato

It really got me thinking. Am i surrounded by people who are making me grow as a woman?looking back on my life, i could really say my family and friends have been my rock, my support group. of course there have been "wilted" petals on the rose, but you get that here and again. I think one of my greatest downfalls is my niceness. people are vicious. we live in a world where a brother will shoot his own for something as little as 20 dollars. I had to grow and learn, that some people can't be trusted. to me knowledge is key to this, and like socrates says, " my knowlege is that i know nothing". knowledge is given by learning, studying, comprehending, analyzing, and bringing it to examples in everyday life. SO..with this being said...think about who you surround yourself with, and if those people will help you prevail and grow into the beautiful young women/men that you are.

with love,

nae.

This Type of Love <3.

Simply Beautiful.

I think every woman wants this type of love.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c5WgmbMW7Ek

thoughts and motives.

so earlier events have got me to thinking. where should the line of friendship be drawn? Thinking back on all the exes, and boys who ive talked too... did i actually let any of them get in the way of my friendship with my girls? ( except for one, and kalena knows who im tlkin about lol) i don't think i have. now..when the shoes are flipped, and your on the opposite end of that rope and you really want this person to believe you but you know its yours word against the "bestfriend". should u even attempt to defend yourself? hm. life questions are quite puzzling.

in my opinion, relationships or post relationships do not work unless you leave other people out of your business. sometimes even the bestfriends. just thoughts and motives here, guys. :)

with love,

nae.

Registering to vote by Oct. 6

So ok I always have thoughts running through my head and this is one of them.... It's great that we are getting people to go out and register to vote but how many of those people realize you actually have to vote on Nov. 4th for your voice to really be heard. I bet right now there are people that believe that because they registered they are done. NO. Your butt did not vote by registering..........Ok thanks now im going to sleep. :)

obama 4 yo mama

OBAMA '08

YES WE CAN!!!

Heyy

Heyy everyone..

iim Lena..a.k.a S in CSC..or sexy lol..

please dont let tha name fool u..come correct

but yeah hope you enjoy each and everyone of our post

hope they keep u entertained cause we have a lot to say

hahaha you'll see more from me

..deuceys..

-LeNa-

pics of uss <3.

soo, i didnt like ANY that we had of us together so i posted individuals! enjoyy.
with love,
nae.

~CRAZY~

<<SEXY>>

*_COOL_*

Is this just a CONCIDENCE???

I honestly don't believe so. 13 years to the date. Come on now lets be serious. Now we all know he was guilty 13 years ago but possible life in prison for armed robbery smh. They got you O.J.

"C00L" checkin in

hello people of blogspot! this is chanae,aka nae, bka your boyfriend's dream girl ;). lol. im the cool part of the group. we are just trying to manage everything at first, so bear with us!! we will be up running shortlyy

with love,

nae <3

Aghh So I guess I get the first Post

Well Hi lol welcome to the world of CSC. We felt the need to share with you guys are world. So much is always going and we want you to be able to come along for the ride I hope you enjoy it. O yea by the way Im Ashley aka AP aka the crazy component of this group. Enjoy!